Games

     A long time i have tried not to get involved not to get attached not to fall in
love i promised i would never let anyone break my heart i swore id never play
that painful part look at me now..... im falling so fast so hard to hang on when
i want this to last the look in his eyes the smile on his face the sound of his
voice the invasion of my space... i want it all , i beg thatt it never goes away
that he never leaves he never breaks my already fragile heart i dont want to cry
its gonna make my lonely soul die god why? why did i find him i should have
walked away i choose the wrong path i chose to stay what the *censored* was i
thinking? im down on my knees begging you to stop stop these feelings inside me
please........ they keep getting stronger its makeing me weaker i dont want to
give in i see it already the nights full of tears when he decides he does not
want to stay near what is my problem? it was always soo easy i used to play them
like a game i never cared i played with their minds i *censored*ed with their
hearts i made them fall when all i did was lie i never loved *censored* that i
never hurt and i never cried at least not from living that lie not from playing
those games not from hurting the people that cared about me i only cried cause i
could never feel the shame i know this time its not gonna be the same im falling
so fast i know ill get burned i see the tables have turned my hate for love is
growing stronger only because im takeing that path the one that will make a
broken heart last i question my motives i look to my past whare the hell am i
going whare ever ill get there fast i hope he will join me for he made me fall i
hope i dont loose him for i took down my wall i dont want the tears to be turned
upon me i cant deal with the pain that will become my reality so when this all
happens ill look back to the games and relize why i live with such beauty but
drowen in deep pain I know now I am the only one to blame.